Shock
I've been blown away by the reactions I've gotten to my little announcement. (Thanks, everybody!) I'm really touched! And everyone has been so excited and positive. I've had cryers...I even had a jumper!
But, I have not been more shocked by any one reaction than by my own. I think I'm still kind of in shock. This IS what I wanted (right?) - no turning back now that's for sure. And, maybe it's my way of protecting myself (because you never know what will happen with these things - will it "stick"?, etc.) but I feel more like there's a virus growing in me than a real, live baby. I feel nauseous. And gassy and crappy (uh, literally).
I'm an expert at "masonry". So, I think that's why I don't let myself dream about the future. I won't let myself envision holding a baby at the end of this...
And I can't imagine the responsibility...
I HAVE known for a long time that this is what I wanted to do. With this person. I can't fathom going through this without him here to help me. And I'm really not afraid of how our life will be - whatever happens.
I just wish this nausea would stop!!!!
But, I have not been more shocked by any one reaction than by my own. I think I'm still kind of in shock. This IS what I wanted (right?) - no turning back now that's for sure. And, maybe it's my way of protecting myself (because you never know what will happen with these things - will it "stick"?, etc.) but I feel more like there's a virus growing in me than a real, live baby. I feel nauseous. And gassy and crappy (uh, literally).
I'm an expert at "masonry". So, I think that's why I don't let myself dream about the future. I won't let myself envision holding a baby at the end of this...
And I can't imagine the responsibility...
I HAVE known for a long time that this is what I wanted to do. With this person. I can't fathom going through this without him here to help me. And I'm really not afraid of how our life will be - whatever happens.
I just wish this nausea would stop!!!!
posted by Momo at Tuesday, December 12, 2006
4 Comments:
Relish in your shock, and the changes that are taking place, dahlink. I'm glad you're writing them here. You're honest and open, and the nausea will subside, and til it does, I'll share your toasted cheese sandwiches with you.
Ya beautiful!
It's a big transition...I know....went from clubs and drinks to Barney and naps...
As for the nausea...My first months were a tad difficult..but it's part of the package...a nice wonderful one !!
It's a big transition...I know....went from clubs and drinks to Barney and naps...
As for the nausea...My first months were a tad difficult..but it's part of the package...a nice wonderful one !!
It's a big transition...I know....went from clubs and drinks to Barney and naps...
As for the nausea...My first months were a tad difficult..but it's part of the package...a nice wonderful one !!
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